Today was a funny day for me . After reading this post some might think i'm foolish , some might think i'm stupid , some might think i'm a idiot and some might think i'm a weaking i guess ? Today cause someone told mi she dont have money to eat as she forget to bring it out . I was angry and worried ofcouse because i had seen this person having a gastric pain before and i do not want to see her suffer again . So i'm super angry with her because she didnt want to borrow money from her friend and she feels bad if i were to buy food and delivered it to her . Rather than angry i'm more of a worried . What if she were to fainted without me knowing ? and anything could have happened to her without me knowing . And what if suddenly i were to recieve a call from the hospital ? what will i be able to do at that moment ? nothing at all other than blaming myself . Rather than blaming her ? i would put all the blame to myself . It's my fault for not insisting delivering food to her . Haix i'm really out of solution . All i can do is blaming it on myself instead . This afternoon i was suppostingly to meet her and than in the end we played a funny game . Do you wanna know what isit ? It's the waiting game ... 4hours of waiting at the amk mrt station makes me look like a fool sitting down at 1 entrance waiting for the one i love . Every hour passes i would always asked myself , is she coming ? or is she not . Should i just walk away as though i haven been here before . But at the very end i still continued waiting for her arriver . Because i told myself i love her didnt i ? since i love someone so much that i miss her every single moment , why cant i just wait for her for just a few hours ? No matter how long it takes , no matter how angry i will be , the moment i see her will be the moment my smile will appeared . i'm silly didnt i ? waited for someone who is not even my girlfriend for 4hours . Maybe to you guys out there i'm a fool , a silly guy , a idiot or a dambass . But to me i dont think so . i think that what most important is the attitude and heart you are preparing to give away just to see her face . Just to have her stand infront of you . I finally waited her for 4hours and she finally appeared . i was speechless as i was too happy at that moment . Finally , finally i have waited her till the moment she appeared . 4Hours exchanges for 30minute of time being together . i'm happy enough . Even though i show attitude infront of her . i show her i'm piss off . But within my heart , i'm actually very happy . The reason why i show her attitude is because i wanted her to notice me , i wanted her to worried about me . But something happen . She found out something about me that makes her real angry . I'm really sry for doing those stuff . I'll quit i promise . i wanted her to be happy yet i'm guessing i have make her cry this very moment when i am typing this . What kind of man am i ??? to be able to make my love one cry . Haix i'm such a failure . What most funny is that i told her i couldnt finish the bowl of noodle but she insisting me in finishing it . i nearly vomit it all out but i didnt show her that . I bare it within me and continue eating , continue eating until the last bit of noodle . I'm hungry i admit since i didnt eaten anything ever since morning but i still tried my best to eat it all because i didnt want her to be sad . What ever i said in this post i really mean it . I'm sorry for all the trouble that i have cause you . I'm sry that i'm just a useless guy . I'm sorry that i had make you cry . i'm sorry that i make you angry . i'm sorry that i keep making you say sorry to me today . But i will promise you , i'll turn into a better guy that you will love whole heartedly . I promise you that i will take good care of you letting no one else bullied . i'll promise you that i'll become a guy that u will be admiring . So please give me a chance to take care of you will you ? Would you become my gf ? Please give me a chance to turn these words into real . Next coming tues will be your birthday le . Your 16th birthday . This sunday we will be celebrating . I hope that you will enjoy yourself to the fullness this sunday . Its something that i had plan it out and hoping you will like it . I'm abit depress right now but i will be back to my ownself by night fall . So i hope to see you back to your oldself too . Sorry that when you cried , i wasnt by your side . Sorry that when you need someone i wasnt by yourside . But from this moment onwards , i hope that whenever you need me , i'll be able to appear right before you and hug you tightly towards me . Last but not least , thankyou for appearing into my life , thankyou for showing me support for everything . I love you . It's from the bottom of my heart .
1:55 AM TomatoBun
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Hi guys.
Tomato-jason here =) 18 this year . birthday on valentine day
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school : Fuchun pri ~ marsiling sec ~ temasek poly . =)
